It should be a nice day today. but as for losing mind person, nothing is interested...... I took a long long time to ask myself, what I really want ? is't becuase not ready to answer or not ready to proof ??? so it's nothing..... I suddently feel that I'm good at nothing...... I came to the public with children gardon..... My Aunt callked me: would u like to go to Thailand for 10 days holiday? I told her i can't go for this time. becuase I plan to stay in Norweign and also (will visit ) belgium from June and July.... before this VISA, I also need to go to HK for some documents...... she said we go this month, if i'm not busy then go there with her...... I looked aroung..... they are so happy with family together. I was sitting there for watching them for a while..... until I came back, I still ask myself, what i really want in my life??? it's still no answer.... it's habit or fate to be same of this life..... alone and alone and alone....... sometimes, I really hope i could be good writer to write everything I did in my life.... for this empty page.....one bye one. it should be not same as today..... is't because tired of heart then make me feeling nothing??? I don't have heart to work.... don't want to talk to people.... just want to see what people do. what they like to do...... luckily, I don't work for people. even though I'm still so poor of fiance.. I still can live. I like work for myself. to do what i want to do......
无奈，让我学会忍耐； 无聊，让我学会沟通； 无助，让我学会生活； 无知，让我学会宽容。 梦想,带领我实践人生,走向未来! 希望,点燃我魅力之光,幸福人生! A lonely( on feeling of meaning love ) girl who has been dreaming to meet a nice man to be bf and then become husband by this chance. but never have any chance to meet him.... maybe this's my fate. I'm still here waiting for this man ( never know where he is ). maybe he doesn't know internet. that's why we can't connect.... Who Am I ? A female who is 30 age and still never be in loved or in love. one of friend told me that Don't look for man, then men will look for u. if u are looking for him. he will be not coming.... It's right! but shit I'm. I still care his looking, age and tall.... What I did and what I'm doing ? when I was 17age. I need to work. in 3 years, I have done 21st Jobs. every day only slept 5 hours and most of tme 3 jobs per day. but i was not lonely before, because I had plan and times was so useful for me. I was asking GOD. why treat me like that? It's not fair for me.... I beg GOD, pls return for report.. but meanwhile I found that. GOD is fair for everyone! then back to school to finished my study. after 2007 year until now, I feel lucky I'm focus on investing for helping people. even though before 2013 year, I had been losing money on such an investing finance. but I got better skill and experience. now it's stable to earn. but my goal is to earn over 20% of evey months. Luckily, my dream is true and better for sometimes. meanwhile I have been being purchaser for europearn company. from 2007 year until now, I have been to Norway, Sweden, Finland, Denmark, France,Austria,Hungary,Germany,Netherlands, Australia, Malaysia and Singapore. I don't now why i like the life in europe. When i got 3 months business VISA in europe. I was thinking if i met a nice guy, I hope could have a date... even though my workmate Alex, she's italian and introduced her bf's friend from Vienna... but i didn't have that feeling on him. maybe I never feel love... so just thinking man in mind should be ... from 2012 year, I started to learn how to cook by myself. set up a small trading company to learn how to be a boss without any client too... but I don't mind. i just do what i want to do. from 2008 year. I got up when I want to get up. i do most things if i want to do and if i like... so life is too freedom for me.... then I miss the old and busy time...... the 2 bookshelives has English, Norwegian, Spanish, French,Netherlndish. Italian and German... but I still never start to learn it well. now only read finance books. becuase i need it for the way to make my skill better on stock. and I found that my heart is still thinking sth. I can't find it in my room...... I don't need to go to office for work. I can stay everywhere just need internet and tel. then i can solve most of things... so that's why i can stay at home for a whole week don't need to go out only go jogging.... I know this's not good . but i' m fine for these. well maybe that's why i can't get a man. just because my environment... but luckily, i will have trips for sometimes. for some orders,I need to go to another city to check quality... so sometimes I need to stay 2 months in another city of a year... I don't earn much money, life is just ok for myself. so that's why I hope i can have better skill and mind on investing .... I will stay about 3 or 2 months in Norway of this year. if i can't meet you until 35age. it's also ok for me. i can accept this common times which is same for being with me so many years.... Smile to everyone, everyone will be smiling to u. life is so nice, even though without u, I still keep my good mood to live well and enjoy it. but I do make sure of that Having u to be together to share our lives ! I can't tell u how wonderful of that life it will be by simple words... Amazing!!! Don't you want it ??? To be honest, maybe I'm not charming enough to make my interested man has that feeling from so far place throw the sky. anyway, it's me. I'm not perfect. but trying to be better.. I will try to become better not only for u. but also for better of myself. Keep nice looking outside and keep always so good inside. I will show u how nice I feel in my different age. every time I will smile for myself about my improving! I'm stronger then yesterday, at least I really think so. and life is really showing me that too. Amy is not only sunshine. but also the special one forever! maybe i'm too special. so there're less people can understand me. but nobody cares too. the really care is only the person. myself. enjoy every time! I will let my shine to shine all of u ! for nothing, just for confident myself to keep it forever!
心如浮云常自在, ( The Heart Like A Floating Cloud,) 意似流水任东西.( The Mind Like A Flowing Stream. ) Hello ! I wish I could find my interested man then to be together, if we really match for each other. then to get married within 2 or 3 years. and have 2 children. and then to be happy and spend the rest life together!!!
The Man I have been looking for being together. 1) No Smoking. ( I don't mind people to smoke. but I do mind if the man is my man to be smoker. it's not good for healthy and children... hehe...)
2) Being Nice looking outside and inside too.hehe... ( I mean, no so perfect man. but at least you can keep it well and to live with your hope and smile. enjoy this world. yes. everyone has nice heart, so, for this thing, I think that's not a big deal.)
3) Age : Between 28 to 38 age. becuase I'm 30age in 2013. most people said age is no problem. yes. it's true. but the point is that u are sure to keep it well as the one who is no problem ? if you are not sure. then it will have a little problem. for me, I hope my man can be in these age. Thanks! if u are over these age, I won't choose u. as the same reason as people won't choose me if i'm not the one he wants too. Thanks!!!
4) Tall : I hope my man can above 175cm and under 196cm. ( I'm 168cm. when I wear high shoes, then it will be near 171or 172cm..and I like my man taller then me. I have good feeling on this. Thanks!!!)
Everyone has his or her choice. that's also meaning,I'm looking for u. and u are also looking for your match one. life is fair for everyone. if it's yours then it will be yours. I don't mean i can get such a person so fast. I also don't know whether the man is here and will be interested in me. I'm not perfect too. but I do believe everyone will get his or her match one. If u still never come to me, I do still enjoy my life and make myself happy even though without you. but I do sure, being with u, Life will be more interesting!!!
About me : 1. Simple and lazy, I'm very simple lady and lazy lady, I live in a very simple way too. everyday, when i want to go to sleep then I will go to sleep. when I want to get up, then I will get up. living with no any plan that's not so good, I know it. but It's me, I never plan what I will do today or tomorrow. I just do what i really want to . life style is always very not so wonderful. I always keep myself in my room. can be 24 hours never go out. but that's not meaning I'm a bored female. when i feel tired or want to go out, then I would like to go jogging near the river, enjoying music and seeing river and walking, this's the best way of solve my bored time. I do this every 1 or 2 weeks. or sometimes 3 or 2 days.. sometimes I also sing with PC together. I like singing. from 2012 year, I just started to learn how to cook for myself. I live alone. so I will try to cook whatever I want... even though it's not so perfect. from then on, I like cooking. before I never do this.. becuase i don't want to be a house woman. even though I don't need to go to office for work, I enjoy what I do too. but I hope to be another way of my life. I don't know whether it's alone or want to change it, just hope to meet a nice man to be together from now on.
2. confident and confortable. I feel good if I go out to be with people. if people don't know me, they will think this lady is very charming and nice. in my opinion, I hope to give a nice impress to people. so I will try to keep myself well and sunshine. I also think I'm confident and also hope to give people hope for the nice way. when i know someone got trouble of sth.If he or she really doesn't know how to do it, I will give my suggestion to him or her. I feel happy if I know my way is useful for them. l like children, I found their lives are nice. becuase their feeling of this world are surprise and exciting.... and sometimes are really very funny! I like old people too, from them , I understood many things even though by the way of talking.....
3. Happy and lonely I'm very reasonable and sunshine lady, no matter what happened, I will keep calm and thinking the better way to solve it. I will image it : if i were her or him, what i would do then will be better ? some people also like to ask me what should I do for this thing.... well, for myself things, I would become I don't now what I would do will be better... if I don't know this thing, I would like to ask some people's suggestions. then choose one of them to follow it... I feel I'm better then yesterday, so I'm happy. but I just don't know why, I only have feeling on the person who will be similar then my dream one. but in real life, such a person, most of them will have gf or get marry or being with nice lady now. so I feel lonely, and I don't want to get a man who is not having any feeling. I perfect to be alone and wait for him. I know I can live better if I just want a man and never care of that... but I can't. maybe I'm all personality. I tried to change that way. but I found that I will give chance to the one as least I feel he'll be ok for me and I will be ok for him too.
I like many sports . go jogging,(most of time). play basketball ( sometimes), play Tennis ( I was only playing it with my brother. now,having play that. because I don't have friends for this ). play golf ( I'm not good at playing this, but i really like it. many years I didn't touch it now... ) ..... if the person I like you and you also have feeling on me. I would like to know u more. people said why you are still single ? you are sexy and pretty too, I said I want a nice man to be together and no play game. because I don't like to play game. and also play computer game too. I have been thinking, if I can't find my man in this way too. perhas I will go to TV when i 35 age. becuase now, I'm not good enough to go there. I wish I could be better.... trying to be better too.
Haven't seen this word for a long time. I think it's out of my life,because it's out of my sight. But today, it comes without kocking at the window of my hear. it's just staying there. so stable & powerful ( But it stands by the wrong side...)
To the real situation of yourself. you really feel freezing. becuae you realized that is painful from your heart. It shouldn't be happened in our lives. becuase we are the most Advanced human being. we should have our idea life to make ourselves to be more & more happy. why that feeling is so stable on my mind? Why should I care so much? why not go out to have a try?
Suddenly, I have to confirm that I'm a loser for something. becuase I can't open my step to move to that side. Music is forever friends! he can sing for you no matter you are happy or sad or peaceful...